GrandFather

Today i receive a sad news from my mom..
My grandpa has pass away this morning..
Cause of death : sudden heart attack
Time of death : 3am (Hospital)
Age : 80+

Death and born was inevitable, my grandfather was a great person in the past.. although the way he treat his family a bit harsh, but that's the way to teach his son/daughter to grow mature. However, he never did those things to his grandson/daughter. He did it on the way round, teach use with happiness and patience. Luckily i still can projected my grandpa face until now. The only things that makes me happy was his smile, a smile that have a thousand of meaning. A smile of his and my grandma enough to make my day complete. I used to spend a lot of time with them before i pursue my degree in malaysia, watching DVD's together at night, having lunch every night, and breakfast every weekends, laugh together and a lot more.

The only things that in my mind, how will my grandma spend her life without her half soul?
could she bear his emptiness?
could she smile without him?
But it doesn't matter, grandpa already go to a peaceful land to meet GOD. GOD will take care of him now.
and my grandma will have a lot of support from her family, since she still stay at my house with my uncle.

Its been a rough day, i'll not share this loss with others.
Every people have their own problem, sometimes its better that people don't know our problem.
I can do it :)

Ciaoooo...
~cen~

Unofficially Graduate

Dear bloggers,

Finally my university live ends today, congrats to myself because i have patiently gone through my uni live for 3.5 years. Many things that happen during that time, upside down, happy, joy, sad, disappointment but its all have been paid off today. 26 November 2012 was the day i receive my final result as a student. But my journey was not end here, but instead its just the beginning of other stories. I've buried my past as what i promise in the last 2 years, and  today was the day i close my old chapter and begin new chapter of my life.

Thanks to all people i meet during my uni life, 4 batch of people come and go each year. They teach me a lot of things that i never face in my entire life and thanks to God and my family who always support me anywhere anytime, mentally or physically.

Lets we start a new fresh life without regret and mistake, plan our move wisely, decide our future maturely because we only life once and we don't want to make our life miserable but we must make our life colorful.

Ciaooooooo
~Cen~

My Feeling

Walau kumasih mencintaimu ( Eventhough i still love you )
Kuharus meninggalkanmu ( But i need to leave you )
Kuharus melupakanmu ( And i need to forget you )
Meski hatiku menyayangimu ( Even my heart still love you )
Naruni membutuhkanmu ( Conscience need you )
Kuharus merelakanmu ( But i need to let you go.. )

OST Samson -  Bukan Diriku

~Cen~

Friendship

Hi bloggers.. its been a while i post up new story..
Its because i'm kind of busy with all the activities start from my parent come visit me and ALL my SUPERB housemate came back to Malaysia..
1 word to describe "WONDERFUL" i really appreciate this 25 days of gathering..
Nothing was more precious than this simple moment.. Family and Friends, what we need more? For me, its more than enough..

My family who always support me, My friends who always play along..
its really Awesome :)
but its over already, most of them already back to china and hometown.. But, we have plan our next gathering.. its "CHINA"
we will have our next gathering trip in HARBIN in this end of year.. will look forward to that day..

I'm appreciate our value of friendship.. We never change even though we separated for a long time..

When we gather, its become like the old times.. Sharing, joking, playing, teasing, travelling..its JOY..

So people, don't ever treat your friend bad or change.. because, good friends were HARD to find..
while friend for Benefit is EASY to find :)

Ciaoooooo

~cen~

Simple Conversation

You still gorgeous and clumsy..
You still pretty and funny..
You become fatty..
But..
You still you the same old you.


That's how I describe about you..
Thanks god that we still can have this simple conversation :)

~Cen~

New room

Finally i get my own room, a spacious room where i can spent my leisure time alone :)
Its almost like a room i called "poison room" Funny words is it?
But that's the name for my room..

Time pass, people change and getting old..
I think i've change a lot, can't describe it though.. :p

Ok bloggers, time to sleep..
I'll spent more time in writting..
Ciaaaooo bloggers,

~Cen~

Missing :)

Hei, to tell the truth i miss you a lot :)

~Cen~

Tired

I wish someone could help me now, i've tried to be a good person, be a nice person..

But what did i get in return? nothing but anger..

Enough with all this patient, i've done my best without disappointing anyone..

However, i'm only the one that always get disappointed..

Life was hard is it? I'll gone through no matter what..

This is my life, a life that i write myself..

I believe in myself and i always have faith in myself, people can change no matter what..

Its a matter of Time.. i hope there would a person who will did back the things i did to all people around me..

I really hope it would be a person, no matter he/she..

I'm a strong man, i walk in a right path and did a right things..

No matter what happen, i'll survive in any harsh situation..

HOW? because every people are special, so do I,

I'm "Special" too..

~Cen~

Happiness

Holla bloggers.. Its been awhile since i post up a new blog..
Currently i'm not really in a mood to blog anything..
Busying with my uni stuff almost kills all my time, not counted with my leisure time.. :)

Btw, finally i'm back in basketball.. Its really fun and enjoy the game, since it was my most favourite sport that i like beside dancing..
Gathering with friends, sharing and teaching in the court makes me feels that i'm still young.. I hope during my final year in my studies, i can teach my teamates to become a better player, hope at the end of this year, i can play abit serious with them and enjoy my last basketball carreer :)
Ohhh yaaa, i forget to tell you all why i said finally back to basketball..
During my basketball carreer i have get a couple of injuries.. The worst case was, bone fracture in both my leg.. This makes me stop as a basketball player for a couple of year..

Ummm... Last but not least.. I also happy because i can communicate back with a person, a person who i care.. Although it not everyday, but at least we can share a story, a joke and laugh together :)

Night bloggersss...
Ciaooo ~Cen~

Friends

Friend is like a treasure, a treasure that worth to keep. How many friends that we can find through out ourlife-time? How many that we consider as a good friends?How many that we consider as enemy?

There are a lot of different types of people that we can meet everyday, however most of the were only strangers in our eyes. Have we ever think that, we known all the people that live in this universe? Not all people like to make friend with each other, some of them maybe like a less crowded environtment, while other like to have people around them.

Today, i have 3 of my friends which i consider as a close friends, a friends that share good times and bad times, which always hang around you and make jokes to fill up your days. 2 of them were going to china to have their liteature and language studies. And another was back for good. The hardest situation was when i face her, i couldn't even make a jokes anymore when i know she will back for good. I try to stay calm when i talk to her for the last time, i held back my tears behind, trying my best to support what she will do in the horizon. I even couldn't said a proper farewell to her, i only can smile and see her talking. After 3 months we never contact each others, never talk because an issue that i myself didn't know what happen. However, i kept thinking and following how she was doing everyday, she was the person i was truly care about, a person who ever make me cried for the second time in my whole life.

There were a lot and a tons of things that i want to talk about,to share, when i can meet her. However, reality was different, i could only talk for not more than 15 minutes and that was the last time i can meet her. For real, i truly miss her, miss the time we play, we hang out, we talk, we spent time with full of laughter. Even now i still feel that, there was something missing in my routine. I wish that i could stop her from going back, i wish i know what she thinking those 3 months and we still keep in touch. Maybe, there would be any changes compare to now. Yet, the reality she still gone.

I'll always support you wherever you are, whatever you do and i'll always put you in my prayers every day. Hope we can meet again in another place, another times and another world. I'll wish you good luck through out your life.

~Cen~

Tired

I'm to tired to face my problem now, thing by things come it's seem that never end.
When, i try to solve 1 problem. The other arise.
Let me rest for a while, i need to hibernate or i'll hurt my own body and mind

~CEN~

Reason To Live

Its been awhile,
times flies, where i'm still embracing my life.
I finally realize something precious within myself,
Spending times with some Australia old folks, it brings my sense back.

Reason to live, although i know what my reason, yet it still in-complete.
Now, i've found out the little light deep inside my sub-consciousness.

I've made a wish list for my born date, i'll try harder from now onward,

To become wiser and more dedicated person.

A lot of things i've been through since i was born, learning one or two lesson,

change from what i learn to be a better person in life.
Now i realize already what was the important things in myself more than yesterday.

This was my :

~ REASON TO LIVE ~

~CEN~

Quotes

Quotes of the Day :

When People Do Something Right :
Nobody Will Remember

When People Do Something Wrong :
Nobody Will Forget

Simple and Meaningful.. :)

~Cen~